Friday, 17 December 2010

3 to 4

3am Thursday morning

I was awake, I was wide awake, I was listening to the wind blow rubbish around the street this kind of sums up the thoughts in my head:

I’m thirsty, I’m awake, it is 3am, I’m awake, I don’t want to go to work tomorrow, I’m awake, it is 3am, I have to go to work tomorrow, I’m thirsty, (roll over). It is windy, it hasn’t been windy for ages, why is it always windy on bin day, how many beer cans do my neighbours collect or is that the same one, I’m thirsty (arms over head). I’m awake, it is 3:15am, why did I marry such a noisy sleeper, I’m thirsty (lie on side), the Apprentice was good, that beer can is really noisy, I don’t want to go to work tomorrow, I need to wrap my Christmas presents, I don’t have enough Christmas cards, need to post the cards I’ve got, I’m thirsty (roll over). I’m awake, what the HELL is he dreaming about, someone go and pick that bloody can up, I’m awake, I’m thirsty (leg out of duvet). I want to be asleep, will it snow tomorrow, will I get to my Christmas party, I don’t want to go to the Christmas party, I want it to be Christmas holidays now, I’m tired, I’m thirsty (too cold limbs under duvet). Why am I so awake, I’ve been awake for hours, must be nearly getting up time, maybe I should wake him up, sounds like he is having a nightmare (lie on side), I’m thirsty.

O wakes up, feels around for his glasses and sticks his nose through the blind to look at the weather.

Me “what’s it doing?”

O “windy”

Me “you ok”

O “weird dreams”

Me “you sounded like you were being chased by a murderer”

O ………………..snore…………………

Me “humf”

The inner dialogue continues:

How can he get back to sleep so easily, why can’t I just fall asleep, thirsty (lie on front). Maybe I should get up for a drink, this would be a good blog post, this would be a dull blog post, what would the blog post look like, thirsty (lie on side). Fucking beer can, need to sleep, will be useless tomorrow, don’t want to go to work tomorrow, need to sort stuff out for Christmas, wonder if the owl/cat is back in, she’ll be scared of the wind, I’m thirsty, (roll over). Maybe I should get up and write this blog post, don’t want to disturb him, maybe should just disturb him, not fair that he can sleep and I can’t, really thirsty (arms over head), will look at phone.

So I catch up on twitter

Inner dialogue continues:

Arhhh I’ve burnt my retinas, someone should invent a less burny retina phone, shouldn’t have exposed my eyes to the light, should be asleep. Would like to be asleep, it is 4:10 how can it only be 4:10 I’ve been awake for hours, when I find who is responsible for that beer can, they’re going to need to buy me a beer, I’m thirsty………




Hmmmm feels like waking up, it is waking up, nooooooo refuse to wake up…………….





Beep beep beep beep beep.


  1. Oh god. It's like you've been inside my head... I have SO been there. Especially the 'leg out of duvet, under duvet' dance.

    Keep water by your bed. Sitting up and having a drink is a nice little witching hour interlude (though keept it away from your charging phone - I once plopped my phone into said water trying to check there were no dead moths in it - long story).

    Also - my mum's advice when I had insomnia really works: don't check the clock, and even though you know you're awake, try not to open your eyes if you can or turn on any lights (including phone). When your mind is racing, sit up, have a drink, go to the loo (you will need to open your eyes but don't turn on the light or look at the clock!) and go and lie quietly. Even if you're not sleeping, you're still resting and that's what you need.

  2. This happens to me often enough too. Mr. Milk on the other hand is out as soon as his head hits the pillow and has few sleep issues. And it drives me nuts! Hope you get a good nights sleep tonight!

  3. Oh my, this is exactly what happens to me - and how do men fall asleep again so fast?! Bah!! and My phone burns my retinas too! double bah!

    Hope you sleep better tonight x

  4. This was such an interesting post. Wishing you a better night tonight x

  5. 'Arhhh I’ve burnt my retinas, someone should '
    invent a less burny retina phone'

    I miss you.

    also, you know how bad my eyes are, I have to look at my phone with one eye only, so then when I look away its like having an eye patch over it. true story.

  6. Oh god what a night! Those don't happen to me very often – I'm a champion sleeper normally so when it does happen I get really weirded out by it! And yes I do random blog posts and twittering too!! And double yes the screens all seem far too bright... Fingers crossed it doesn't happen again for ages and ages!

    P.S. Have a very lovely Xmas my dear, with lots of sleeping, chilling and general niceness xx

  7. Sounds like a horrible night; I had the same last night randomly and G is away so he wasnt bothering me!

    When I attempt to look at my phone during the night I have to bring it so close to my face since I dont have my glasses on that it will def be burning my retina's! Not so good!


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